hmmm.. very l0ng nv update lers.. i d0n quite remember wad happened last week [ Thursday 13/7/06 ] .. i onli remember last week, during ge0graphy less0n.. teacher was calling 0ut register numbers t0 answer her questi0ns.. den when it was JiaKai's turn, i t0ld wee suan dat he sure call her de.. and he realli did! den wee suan purp0sely call me next~ den after my turn, wee suan g0 dare me call her register n0.. in de end i realli did~ OMG~ feel realli bad.. didnt realli wanted t0 sab0 her de..
den last friday [ Friday 14/7/06 ] .. i seem very stressed 0ut larhs.. in de end.. at nite.. my mum came back and started sc0lding me f0r using de c0mputer.. den i said i w0uld 0ff s00n.. but didnt.. den she started twisting my ear.. den i realli realli angry.. and pushed her away.. in de end it br0ke int0 a fight.. she started trying t0 take away my c0mputer s0ckets, but i push her against de wind0w.. den my grandparents als0 c0me.. den my mum and grandma keep slapping me.. everytime dey slap me my specs sure fly de.. den i push them back even m0re.. den my mum.. t0ld me dat she didnt want t0 have a s0n like me.. i feel very.. sigh.. den de next day [ Saturday 15/7/06 ] .. i felt realli agitated after wad happened last nite.. and didnt b0ther t0 g0 NDP.. i realli regret.. but i have n0 ch0ice.. den i asked my c0usin c0me my h0use.. den she came le use c0m.. den when my mum came back, she started sc0lding me again f0r using de c0m.. den i ask her g0 eat shit.. den she c0me slap me again.. den i push her t0 de fl00r.. den my aunt 0s0 c0me.. 4 ppl push me t0 de wind0w d0n let me d0 anithing.. den started fighting them again.. den my grandma very angry.. in de end slap me till my specs fly 0ut 0f de wind0w.. den my c0usin g0 d0wnstairs take.. i am realli angry larhs.. den my aunt keep telling me isit want push my mum t0 death.. den i t0ld them t0 push me d0wn 9th st0rey and die larhs.. den they diam diam le.. den i l0ck myself inside de r00m.. den sleep till night.. my g0dfather came.. instead 0f punishing me.. he talked t0 me ab0ut wad happened.. den went my aunt's h0use watch vcd.. den my dad came back.. i knew my mum w0uld tell him de.. den he say a few lines.. den went h0me.. den next day.. [ Sunday 16/7/06 ] bef0re he left f0r vietnam again.. t0ld me ab0ut my resp0nsibilities.. and i realised i'm wr0ng..
[ M0nday 17/7/06 ] went t0 sch00l kinda earli t0day.. saw wee suan they all g0ing f0r their b0wling c0mpetiti0n.. den went t0 class and TRIED studying f0r ge0g test.. after assembly actualli c0nvinced Mdm Sha n0t t0 have Ge0g test de.. but she still give~ arghs.. sure w0nt d0 well de larhs.. w0uld be disapp0inting her agains.. den ET keep walking.. but always met with the timing.. l0ls.. den 0ne r0und ti0 caught.. de b0ys d0 36 pumpings.. every0ne d0 until like want die lia0s.. l0ls.. den art d0 dunn0 wad.. den during Literature.. g0t gr0up w0rk.. den yenfung dey all d0 s0me p0se.. den Mr.Y00ng like it w0rhs.. hahas.. den while listening t0 Mr.Y00ng less0ns, i dunn0 why.. went t0 test whether yenfung de penknife sharp 0r n0t.. den keep slashing my pulse dere.. in de end realli ti0 cut.. den yenfung they all keep telling me will get tathantes.. aiya.. wadeva.. den say will die if d0n get injecti0n.. den she kept l00king at me larhs.. hmmmm.. den went t0 put plaster all these.. den went t0 talk t0 j0an dey all.. l0ls.. den went assembly.. sat beside her lehs! actualli i want jus g0 sit beside her de.. but if i sh0 bhb sit dere.. might sp0il her m00d.. i scared she upset 0r s0mething.. sh0 i act like i quite unwilling larhs.. nvm ab0ut dat.. den after sch0ol.. went canteen buy f00d eat.. den g0 classr00m filled it with water.. actualli want pretend t0 splash Kelvin de.. but when i was ab0ut t0 "act".. 0ne staff walk pass.. den ask me g0 0ut.. den ask me p0ur away de water inside.. den ask me give him de plastic bag.. den still say thank y0u t0 me.. guai lan kia.. den me, hx and kel take bag g0 hx h0use play BBall.. den play till 5.30pm like dat.. den went h0me..
"I'm realli s0rrie.. i didnt realli meant t0 sab0 u dat day.. it's just that.. y0u came t0 my mind suddenly at that m0ment.. dats why.. i am realli tired 0f d0ing all de w0rk by myself.. i hate it! i'm realli heartbr0kenn.. i dunn0 in terms 0f wad.. but i jus feel sh0.. wad can anyb0dy d0? " MaRdiinz